So - will the remodel ever come to an end? Sure.
Will stuff at work get better soon in this difficult economic climate? Sometime.
Will I ever lose a bunch of weight? I think so.
This is the month for some of these things to change. Remodels. Work stuff. AND - my weight. THE thing I HAVE MOST CONTROL over is the weight thing so I better really get on that! Better portion control. Less beer, wine, etc... Less sugary stuff. I think I can do that. Didn't do that last night (3/2/09 - when I took an extra piece of cake - but from now on --- no seconds on dessert and smaller portions generally - smaller breakfast than I had this morning when I had too much cheese)
Perhaps --- a DIET blog to track myself!!! - Rather than setup a new blog I will use one I have now. SO - see: http://doteshuva.blogspot.com- where I hope to RETURN to a more healthful weight... and thus honor my body, etc... THIS will be my personal task for myself starting this month.
And - this week I prepare for the Purim Schpeil and the University Chorus' performance of Felix Mendelssohn's oratorio "Elijah".
This month will mark our (Karen and my) fourth wedding anniversary. We plan a trip to San Francisco and for gifts we are not set yet. THIS is an "even" year so it may be something as good as what we got for ourselves on our second anniversary which was a fully automated coffee center! Maybe we will find ourselves something related to art... perhaps a piece of furniture which can showcase some things while protecting them from the cats...
And so things go... My daughters have been out to CA a bit recently. Seeing them is always a wonderful thing. Amy is due in a few hours! The two of them continue to live in NYC and figure stuff out. Who knows????
Can I say that life is good. Should I say it? Rabbi Nachman of Bratslav says: "When asked how things are and despite hardship and suffering you answer "Good," then G-d says, "You call this good? I'll show you what good really is!" There is the converse. AND for me... I hesitate to say because I have experienced reversals after saying that things are good. A question? - have I experienced reversals when I say things are bad? Hmmm..... I must think.
OR in any case - things are as they are. I try to do the mindful thing. I try to do the loving Tonglen thing (or at least I have thought about Tonglen and have begun it but I have fallen asleep before completing it... SO I will work on THAT, too.). I cleaned up my home office a bit and that feels good for the moment. As an older person I guess I like and/or tolerate clutter less well than I might once have. Good to know. AHHHH... I look forward to the completion of the remodel. YES!
That is all for now. LOVE TO YOU ALL!
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
so long... at this time - in Feb. 2009
It has been a while... and what can I say?
I can say.. soon the house remodel will be done. Hurray. I can get organized, reorganized, settled, resettled...... etc.. It has been a lot of little yet hard decisions. It has been a bit of a mess. While we truly had a lot of space (compared with many others in the world) it has been distressing for me to have had less space then usual. But SOON!!! I will have more space than before, better space, nicer space, etc... etc... So... soon all will be better. Ouch!
At work -- things are ok. I am just about finished with what will probably be my last response to my merit review. I may yet edit it some more... But -- I am about done with it. It has been quite a chore. Quite a project really. Quite time consuming... Hopefully it will prove worthwhile. I can hope but it is unlikely, really. Darn.
Also at work... there is ever again the question of how to make the HSL a destination for people. Well -- that has been a question since the building opened in the late 1970's. Maybe something radical should be considered but what would that be? Making our space attractive and welcoming and where food and drinks are allowed is NOT going to do it because nearbye are new spaces which provide all that. Having people here who will help the folks we might attract with their needs... well that would be IT - but what would that be? I guess that is the question.
At home -- things are good. Besides the stress of the remodel. Karen and my fourth wedding anniversary is coming up ... We will probably go to SF for a long weekend and take in a show, museum(s), shopping, etc.... Or ?????
There is a lot of uncertainty. How much longer will I continue to work at UC Davis? Retirement is a possibility. What would I do after retiring? That is uncertain. Finances are a bit uncertain with the economy is something of a free-fall. Recession - yes.... but don't say depression. In fact a Depression is part the economy and MOSTLY PART -- how people are feeling. IF/when a tipping point number of people become depressed --- then there we will be! What might that tipping point be? When? Can it be prevented from happening?
As always .... I say --- aaaaahhhhhh........
I can say.. soon the house remodel will be done. Hurray. I can get organized, reorganized, settled, resettled...... etc.. It has been a lot of little yet hard decisions. It has been a bit of a mess. While we truly had a lot of space (compared with many others in the world) it has been distressing for me to have had less space then usual. But SOON!!! I will have more space than before, better space, nicer space, etc... etc... So... soon all will be better. Ouch!
At work -- things are ok. I am just about finished with what will probably be my last response to my merit review. I may yet edit it some more... But -- I am about done with it. It has been quite a chore. Quite a project really. Quite time consuming... Hopefully it will prove worthwhile. I can hope but it is unlikely, really. Darn.
Also at work... there is ever again the question of how to make the HSL a destination for people. Well -- that has been a question since the building opened in the late 1970's. Maybe something radical should be considered but what would that be? Making our space attractive and welcoming and where food and drinks are allowed is NOT going to do it because nearbye are new spaces which provide all that. Having people here who will help the folks we might attract with their needs... well that would be IT - but what would that be? I guess that is the question.
At home -- things are good. Besides the stress of the remodel. Karen and my fourth wedding anniversary is coming up ... We will probably go to SF for a long weekend and take in a show, museum(s), shopping, etc.... Or ?????
There is a lot of uncertainty. How much longer will I continue to work at UC Davis? Retirement is a possibility. What would I do after retiring? That is uncertain. Finances are a bit uncertain with the economy is something of a free-fall. Recession - yes.... but don't say depression. In fact a Depression is part the economy and MOSTLY PART -- how people are feeling. IF/when a tipping point number of people become depressed --- then there we will be! What might that tipping point be? When? Can it be prevented from happening?
As always .... I say --- aaaaahhhhhh........
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