(Started rollover to IRA at Fidelity yesterday ... RMD coming next week to B of A... and then rollover and then SELECT some funds -- and then maybe look for bonus' from other IRA places..)
CORRUPTION.. DISRUPTION ... of elections... Not excepting results, questioning who voted... etc etc.. - In my cherished USA and in my cherished Israel... In both cases -- leaders who did/do not want to let go... No matter what... Only THEY can do what is right, best, etc. etc...
Interesting quote about leaders by R. Nachman of Bratslav -- something about leaders being people who can take insults... - not to be confused with Advice..../w/Evident (AWE)
and then there is this:
"“There are leaders who go by the name of "rabbi" but whose learning has been picked up from the "superficialities" and "waste" of Torah. They are unable to control even themselves, let alone other people. But they still have pretensions to greatness and seek to lead and guide the whole world. You should be very careful not to accord them any recognition whatsoever, so as to not add in any way to their power or authority. They themselves can be forgiven for what they do: they are no more than victims of a strong lust for power. The people who give them credibility and power and who are prepared to accord them the title "rabbi" will have a heavy penalty to pay (LM I, 61:2).”
― Advice - Likutey Etzot"And elsewhere - admonitions about seeking leadership... such a person is not a good choice...
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and so ... who am I - to sit/stand and wonder ...AGAIN ME.... what to do.... why.... where... when...????
The Wheels of Fate.... or my assertive passionate action?
AHHHhhhh... with whom?
Today Ellen was too busy to come to Davis... and while that is understandable... absolutely --- why did I not mind? Why was I not sad? Was I relieved... I wouldn't say that -- but the day was easier... by myself and especially as I am dog sitting Foxie... who does take some figuring out...
SO -- Very LIMITED time with Ellen... and I think that is ok... which is not to old (or new-then/past) version of me. I've changed.. And how much is that a bit of giving up? 0r accepting... or settling... What is it??? What Do I Want? Yesterday I wrote a lot about that. I have some wants/needs to be LOVED... and being Loving is not the best answer... Because - in both the giving and recieving of love - I just don't know it, inderstand it, do it, think it, FEEL IT..!!!
T.S. Eliot:
and about those "Four Quartets"
- Burnt Norton (1936): Explores the nature of time—past, present, and future—and "the still point of the turning world" experienced through a fleeting memory in a deserted rose garden. [1]
- East Coker (1940): Focuses on ancestry, the cyclical nature of human life and generations, the humility of knowing oneself, and the difficulty of language. [1]
- The Dry Salvages (1941): Takes its imagery from the sea and a large river ("a strong brown god"), integrating themes from the Bhagavad Gita regarding detachment and the intersection of the eternal with time. [1]
- Little Gidding (1942): Set in midwinter during wartime bombings in England, it unites historical memory, purgatorial fire, and grace, concluding with the famous realization that "the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time". [1]
- Structure: Each of the four poems is divided into five movements modeled loosely on musical quartets, balancing lyrical beauty with philosophical discourse. [1, 2]
- Key Influences: The poems blend Christian mysticism (especially Anglo-Catholicism, Dante, and St. John of the Cross) with Eastern philosophy and classical Greek fragments (such as Heraclitus). [1]
