Tuesday, July 14, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/14/2026 - Bastille Day!!!!

 YES -- it is Bastille Day.... see below for a AI quick view...

FREEDOM..... French Fries or Freedom Fries... a frie by any name is still a frie.


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Bastille Day, known in France as La Fête Nationale or Le 14 juillet, is celebrated annually on July 14th. It commemorates the 1789 storming of the Bastille prison, a pivotal flashpoint of the French Revolution, as well as the Fête de la Fédération held the following year. [1]
Known officially in English as the French National Day, the holiday symbolizes the birth of the modern French Republic and the unity of its people. [1]
How It Is Celebrated
Bastille Day is marked by national festivities, including a large military parade on the Champs-Élysées in Paris, fireworks at the Eiffel Tower, and traditional firemen's balls (Bals des pompiers). [1, 2]
Local Bay Area Celebrations
In the San Francisco Bay Area, the holiday is typically celebrated with community events featuring French music, food, and culture, often organized by groups like the Alliance Française de San Francisco. [1, 2]
For the most up-to-date local event details and schedules, it is recommended to check the Alliance Française de San Francisco or Celebrate Bastille Day SF websites. [1, 2]

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Below a translation.... LOTS of verses... I note this year, 2026, the idea of pure blood watering fields.. What does that mean? And humanity, also, and battle against those who are greedy and lawless and brutes.. HERE IS A RECORDING that contains a lot of the verses... And HERE IS ANOTHER musical version.. Grand! With soloists, chorus, full orchestra!!
FrenchEnglish Translation by Laura K. Lawless

Verse 1:

Allons enfants de la patrie,
Le jour de gloire est arrivé !
Contre nous de la tyrannie
L'étendard sanglant est levé ! (bis)
Entendez-vous dans les campagnes,
Mugir ces féroces soldats ?
Ils viennent jusque dans nos bras
Égorger nos fils, nos compagnes!

Verse 1:

Let's go children of the fatherland,

The day of glory has arrived!
Against us tyranny's
Bloody flag is raised! (repeat)
In the countryside, do you hear
The roaring of these fierce soldiers?
They come right to our arms
To slit the throats of our sons, our friends!

Refrain:

Aux armes, citoyens !
Formez vos bataillons !
Marchons ! Marchons !
Qu'un sang impur
Abreuve nos sillons !

Refrain:

Grab your weapons, citizens!
Form your battalions!
Let us march! Let us march!
May impure blood
Water our fields!

Verse 2:

Que veut cette horde d'esclaves,
De traîtres, de rois conjurés ?
Pour qui ces ignobles entraves,
Ces fers dès longtemps préparés ? (bis)
Français ! pour nous, ah ! quel outrage !
Quels transports il doit exciter !
C'est nous qu'on ose méditer
De rendre à l'antique esclavage !

Verse 2:

This horde of slaves, traitors, plotting kings,
What do they want?
For whom these vile shackles,
These long-prepared irons? (repeat)
Frenchmen, for us, oh! what an insult!
What emotions that must excite!
It is us that they dare to consider
Returning to ancient slavery!

Verse 3:

Quoi ! ces cohortes étrangères
Feraient la loi dans nos foyers !
Quoi ! ces phalanges mercenaires
Terrasseraient nos fiers guerriers ! (bis)
Grand Dieu ! par des mains enchaînées
Nos fronts sous le joug se ploiraient !
De vils despotes deviendraient
Les maîtres de nos destinées !

Verse 3:

What! These foreign troops
Would make laws in our home!
What! These mercenary phalanxes
Would bring down our proud warriors! (repeat)
Good Lord! By chained hands
Our brows would bend beneath the yoke!
Vile despots would become
The masters of our fate!

Verse 4:

Tremblez, tyrans ! et vous, perfides,
L'opprobre de tous les partis,
Tremblez ! vos projets parricides
Vont enfin recevoir leur prix ! (bis)
Tout est soldat pour vous combattre,
S'ils tombent, nos jeunes héros,
La France en produit de nouveaux,
Contre vous tout prêts à se battre !

Verse 4:

Tremble, tyrants! and you, traitors,
The disgrace of all groups,
Tremble! Your parricidal plans
Will finally pay the price! (repeat)
Everyone is a soldier to fight you,
If they fall, our young heros,
France will make more,
Ready to battle you!

Verse 5:

Français, en guerriers magnanimes,
Portez ou retenez vos coups !
Épargnez ces tristes victimes,
A regret s'armant contre nous. (bis)
Mais ces despotes sanguinaires,
Mais ces complices de Bouillé,
Tous ces tigres qui, sans pitié,
Déchirent le sein de leur mère !

Verse 5:

Frenchmen, as magnanimous warriors,
Bear or hold back your blows!
Spare these sad victims,
Regretfully arming against us. (repeat)
But not these bloodthirsty despots,
But not these accomplices of Bouillé,
All of these animals who, without pity,
Tear their mother's breast to pieces!

Verse 6:

Amour sacré de la patrie,
Conduis, soutiens nos bras vengeurs !
Liberté, Liberté chérie,
Combats avec tes défenseurs ! (bis)
Sous nos drapeaux, que la victoire
Accoure à tes mâles accents !
Que tes ennemis expirants
Voient ton triomphe et notre gloire !

Verse 6:

Sacred love of France,
Lead, support our avenging arms!
Liberty, beloved Liberty,
Fight with your defenders! (repeat)
Under our flags, let victory
Hasten to your manly tones!
May your dying enemies
See your triumph and our glory!

Verse 7:

Nous entrerons dans la carrière
Quand nos aînés n'y seront plus ;
Nous y trouverons leur poussière
Et la trace de leurs vertus. (bis)
Bien moins jaloux de leur survivre
Que de partager leur cercueil,
Nous aurons le sublime orgueil
De les venger ou de les suivre !

Verse 7:

We will enter the pit
When our elders are no longer there;
There, we will find their dust
And the traces of their virtues. (repeat)
Much less eager to outlive them
Than to share their casket,
We will have the sublime pride
Of avenging them or following them!

Monday, July 13, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/13/2026 -after a weekend...

  obviously -- days skipped... it was the weekend and I was in Walnut Creek/clayton....

Saw the movie -- Young Washington...

More importantly -- Ellen and I talked... we each are not seeing anyone. There is no Rapture... her word... We like each other... and share good times... I asked her .. about Aug. 28th and helping me w/medical thingy... and she said yes. That is nice. She is supportive. 

We did talk about what we are doing... and some of our past... too.. 

2026 Daily - 07/10/2026 - OY... pains, falls, etc..

 Both Steve and Rachel have hurt themselves... Backs... Tylenol.... etc...   I saw Steve at his house... and Rachel at her's and I ran some errands for her, too. AOK...

Me -- tested high on sugar... also a bit high on potassium... Costco med delivery arrived. 

Rotary was fine this morning... 

Light - elliptical workout. Spoke w/Pam. Rick came over for a yahtziet candle (I was not home)... for Sydney. Nice.

And so it goes.... .... .... .... 

Neal - religion is art...?! AND -- my men's group... critiqued for Armor.

Thursday, July 09, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/9/2026 - men and love, REALLY?

well.... this was titled this morning.... and now after a full day ... I write!

The thing to write about is the Men's group meeting... ARMOR... what gives me strength? What did I learn about emotions/feelings? What did I learn about death, illness, etc... How am I vulnerable... and what does vulnerability mean? How do I feel about asking for help?

For me... sadness is what I wrote as my armor... it is better than anger... for me. Anger starts when I am saddened... probably mostly when I am silenced.  As for EMOTIONS... they were beaten out of me... and now I am rather NUMB... Emotions are MUTED... not to sad... and certainly not to happy... and more importantly - not a lot of loving vs hating... Neither get  goo workout.

AND then there is the idea -- relative to help... One can only depend on family... AND NOW ... what family do I have? My daughters, cousins, and special friends.. And do I TRUST?? No!!!! I have been abandoned... ignored... And that is true! Abandonment... Good old Linda poo poo'd that years ago... and what along with other things were things she was wrong about... Even bad! maybe...

And so ... what are my ARMORS? retreat... isolation... shutting down... AND denial??? Denying I am angry? Lost? ... At the baseball game earlier this week... there was a lot of confusion and poor planning and I suffered. I didn't like not knowing where people were.. Where seats were... I don't like getting lost. It was very painful... 

Others have abandoned me... and I withdraw....

OY!/ 

Have I ever really loved? Felt love... It is probably true I never loved well... that is another issue. But have I felt love? Or was it a feeling of wanting to love? A yearning? .... Well - I think I have loved... and it was not excepted... and I should have realized that when a person doesn't believe me when I am telling the truth.. or A Truth... or a truth in the MOMENT... It would have been good to have said that to someone who was open and able to build in/onto that... Too bad I didn't understand the damage that person was still carrying... OH WELL... 

NOW - I am very tentative... AFRAID.. perhaps... really... Why put myself in the position to be rejected... Why open myself to rejection... like a thanksgiving a few years ago... Like other people... Oh well. OY!

My father ... did a job on my reputation... I may have done one on him... I wonder who was more right? Who was supposed to love and protect whom? What demands could who make? And the lasting shit is just that... SHIT...  My mother followed and/or did some leading... And my sister -- played the innocent... She didn't know.. She didn't see... or hear... Maybe that was true... but she also wouldn't listen to me... years ago when we were in our 20's, 30's. She wasn't so innocent as she was oblivious and wanted to stay that way. And -- so -- as I often said -- it was the three of them... plus whatever help they could hire or otherwise get. 

Helper... being a helper... that is what I think I am.. I help when I can, when I am needed, when I am aware of need. I don't necessarily go and look for needy people... but I am inclined to help... and to reject those who don't help... 

Next week.. I meet with the new/interim rabbi... I would like to be restored to doing most of the service I used to do.. Being gabbai is not necessarily appropriate... but the singing, davening, teaching (at Jonah) is what I hope for!!!

Wednesday, July 08, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/8/2026 -yesterday, this morning... ETC - lots of suggestions...

Yesterday -  brought Foxie back to Sarah. This morning... no doggy. Though her 8am breakfast call got me out of bed.

This morning -- told by Barry at CBH - contact the new Rabbi... which I did by email. 

And then - some pizza for breakfast w/coffee and some facebook where the idea/question came up: How do I feel when I am with the person of my relationship? Good question. I do wonder about the present, the past, and the FUTURE... But really - in the moment - when we are both present -- How do I feel?

SO - how do I feel? I am thinking and let me list...

comfortable AND at ease AND caring/compassionate AND careful about what I say and how AND turned on AND yet distant, physcially AND distance driving to her ... diffilcult AND anxous about my lifestyle/activities which are random and unfocused and not particularly productive one might judge (and am I being judged?) AND not very cared for... maybe? AND ????

How do I feel when aroung her? Do I feel smaller or bigger? Do I feel like myself without shrinking? Do I expand, grow, be more alive, vibrant...?

from the facebook:

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So many people confuse intensity with intimacy. If calm love feels unfamiliar to you, there is nothing wrong with you. You might just be touching an old wound that was never given language.

Healthy love feels steady. It feels safe. It feels like someone choosing you without making you perform for it.

If this sparked something inside you, I have more support, tools, and resources for healing your relationship patterns in the link in my bio. You are worthy of a love that stays

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the listing above is ... hmmmm... not so wonderful.  But it IS nice to have someone to hug, etc.

DO I feel good about myself? Am I being AUTHENTIC!

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DO TOGETHER... to build:




Shakira, Burna Boy · Dai DailyDo's - or do's sometimes...

1. Watch the sunrise together. 2. Watch the sunset in silence. 3. Take a long walk with no destination. 4. Visit a bookstore and pick a book for each other. 5. Go hiking and leave your phones in your pockets. 6. Have a picnic in the park. 7. Build a puzzle together. 8. Take a dance class. 9. Visit an art museum. 10. Go to a local farmer’s market. 11. Make coffee and talk for hours. 12. Cook a new recipe together. 13. Bake cookies from scratch. 14. Go stargazing. 15. Watch old home videos or childhood photos. 16. Create a shared playlist and listen to it on a drive. 17. Rent bikes and explore your city. 18. Visit a botanical garden. 19. Volunteer together. 20. Go thrift shopping and style each other. 21. Paint on canvases—even if you’re both terrible. 22. Take a pottery class. 23. Read your favorite book aloud to each other. 24. Write letters to your future selves. 25. Make a vision board together. 26. Visit an aquarium or zoo. 27. Play board games without keeping score. 28. Learn a new skill together from YouTube. 29. Have a movie night with homemade popcorn. 30. Go kayaking or paddleboarding. 31. Spend an afternoon at the beach or by a lake. 32. Visit a small town you’ve never explored. 33. Create a scrapbook of your memories. 34. Build a blanket fort and talk all night. 35. Go roller skating or ice skating. 36. Take photos of each other around your city. 37. Visit a library and discover something new. 38. Sit somewhere beautiful and ask each other meaningful questions. 39. Turn off your phones for a few hours and simply be present. 40. Watch airplanes take off and dream about future trips. 41. Make a playlist that tells your love story. 42. Go camping—even if it’s just in your backyard. 43. Learn each other’s favorite childhood games. 44. Have a “yes day” where you take turns choosing activities. 45. Plant flowers or start a small garden together. 46. Create a time capsule. 47. Drive with no destination and follow random turns. 48. Watch a meteor shower if one is happening. 49. Spend a day doing each other’s favorite hobbies. 50. Dream out loud about the life you want to build together



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THINGS TO DO:

read

write

walk

exercise

hike

bike

swim

paint

sculpt-pottery









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Monday, July 06, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/6/2026 - whoops missed yesterday - and DREAMS?

 Good morning!!!! And so things begin... fresh... No more Mourner's Kaddish... I need to remember that... She, Debbie, has been sent on her way. Blessings all.

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and now ... its 9:30pm ... and I''m hoping to get to sleep soon, early... in prep for tomorrow - Ava, bookclub, return Foxie, see Ellen and we go to Giants baseball game.\

Today's reading in R.Nachman... - do/follow Torah law .. and find a tzaddick...  And lots of advice on facebook... essentially - be here and now and authentic and true to oneself and one's desires and dreams.

And WHAT ARE MY DREAMS? MY PURPOSE? HERE, NOW...  Finally teach and lead about????!!! It is all about my Judaism and my travels and growth and bits of knowledge and hopes... and ????

AND just heard -- Sarah landed back in SFO... just now.... Tough travels I think.. heat and rain on East Coast... but she is back. YEA!

NOW -- off to brush teeth and get in bed... and sleep - perchance to dream.


Saturday, July 04, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/4/2026

FROM YESTERDAY,,,, EVER SO IMPORTANT!!!  It is important for Ellen and I to talk about whatever is the US that is the US. Is there an "us"? Is there issues from the past? What is going on in the present... WHAT ABOUT THE FUTURE??? I for one wonder about the future and I wonder what I can do and what will she be able to do .. ABOUT??? 


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and today: Met her brother Mark and his wife Alice. Had some dinner.. I was distracted and nervous w/Foxie there though she was good. 

They were watching The Producers - original one... I will watch soon on Kanopy.

No big sounds of fireworks tonight... so Foxie OK.

2026 Daily - 07/3/2026 - TALK!!! about ???!!

 It is important for Ellen and I to talk about whatever is the US that is the US. Is there an "us"? Is there issues from the past? What is going on in the present... WHAT ABOUT THE FUTURE??? I for one wonder about the future and I wonder what I can do and what will she be able to do .. ABOUT??? 

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from thinking about R. Nachman of Bratzlov...

Truth, faith, forgetting.... FRESH - LIFE... !!!!

When we wake up to LIVE... and we are hopeful and positive in the new moment... That is wonderful. Being sad and negative .... hard and painful and NOT of THIS moment... HOWEVER - what if we are in some MIDDLE...  Content? Taking it easy... That is NOT what is good for The Future ... personal or communal. IMHO ... and in the Rabbi's???

Thursday, July 02, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/2/2026 - second day in a row... again - and preview of tomorrow.... and well said tonight.

 Well... yes I am writing ... but what?

Services over. Breakfast was doubled oat bran -300 calories. And coffee, of course. Lunch? Dinner? We shall see... Weight was down.. that is good. See calendar for complete food info.

HIFU (High-intensity focused ultrasound) - Scheduled for late August... no biopsy this time. PET scan showed what and where and amidst confusions about drivers, etc... for biopsy - Doc said - lets just do the HIFU which would be very likely required and check w/Pet scan later. OK by me... I thought this would be workable myself.... SO... AOK.

AND today is/was the last time I will say Kaddish as it has been 11 months... and that is the right amount of time.

Walked the dog .. first thing this morning... about 30 minutes... may take her again at 10am... for same or longer walk. DID ... and then ended at Club.... but she didn't do much running and I didn't have any tennis balls, etc...

Went home... watched an episode of Spooks and had lunch... and now writing this.

WHAT IS THIS???? -- a log, a diary, thoughts, plans, histories...  It is a lot of things. It is a record of me.

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I sit here -- at about 10pm ... after reading some of Rabbi Noson's writing about Rabbi Nachman of Bratzlov... my hero??!!

AND I just talked with and touched Foxie who seemingly was having a bad dream. 

THE POINT... I care! I am a caring person ... if/when I see someone who needs care or in some way become aware of a need for care... It is not easy for me to show care ... I can spend some time... some money... some conversation.. some compassion and empathy as well as some personal stories..

From the Nachman/Noson reading -- the idea of forgetting and starting FRESH.. was really important to me. The past cannot be changed... we are here in the present and the future is unknown... That is Buddhism... but R. Nachman finds value and joy in forgetting... FORGETTING... and STARTING EACH DAY ANEW... FRESH... LIVING! A wonderful base from which the present and future may authentically, warmly, lovingly flow!

I CARE...  and I want to be cared for!! I have not been well cared for in the past... Close sometimes... BUT IT WAS ME.. who failed to take in whatever good came my way. I could have been more receptive and that would have been appreciated... BECAUSE -- the needs of anyone gives another anyone the opportunity TO CARE....  At least that is something I have recenlty thought about ... - When there are troubles... the troubles of others are opportunities for others to give, care, love... etc... We need opportunities to do Mitzvahs and we should take all opportunities.

And each day is NEW.. and no old regrets, grudges, mistakes need to enter TODAY. BE FRESH!

And now -- to sleep... good night... some reading before and maybe Ellen will call and we'll talk.. ABOUT???  (ahhhh.. tomorrow!)



Wednesday, July 01, 2026

2026 Daily - 07/1/2026 - back again...!!

 SO - the door is always open... The DOOR to where, what? And how and why? AAaaahhhhhh... me analysing... over analyzing ... And thus whether or not the door is open or shut -- I don't go through it!!!

So - what do i want? Where might it be? Why? THE HOW ... is - GO!

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now it is evening... I'm about to head to bed...

Quiet day.... Did find, finally, the duct tape... so affixed to car and we'll see. Also cleaned front car windshield... Walked dog a little and brought her to club .. twice. 

Got out some boxes and also got out a hammock but I need some longer chains....!!!

Had dinner and a black russian.

Tomorrow -- Thursday --- I'll have some eggs for dinner OR salad bag... !!, oat bran again for breakfast... and at lunch -- a bagel, turkey, tomato, lettuce, mayo... 

Services tomorrow morning.. maybe car shop... online and perhaps visit someplace in Davis...

Thats all... good night!


2026 Daily - 06/26/2026 - Rumi, prisons, open doors...

 Rumi -- from Steve's suggestion - specifically see: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFx1pvq-1iI

"Be empty of worrying.
Think of who created thought!
Why do you stay in prison,
When the door is so wide open?
Move outside the tangle of fear-thinking.
Live in silence.
Flow down and down in always
Widening rings of being."

AND there is a lot more... Rumi.... !!!!

It is now almost 8pm... and I left a voice mail for Ellen about Saturday night... 

What is with me??? 

Friday, June 26, 2026

2026 Daily - 06/24/2026 - Today PURPOSE.... quest...

 What purpose shall I pursue today? There is a meeting of the Davis Chorale/Community Sing group tomorrow... I could: 

call Enterprise and CAPradio and TV stationS to see how to get on.... And at meeting - ASK: have we coordinated with other singing groups in Davis/Yolo? And who are they?

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For a new Jewish presence in Davis what is wanted, needed, etc...: a school; a place to study; a place to pray; a place to gather.... AND -- is it necessary for me to re-sent email that was sent? Well - I did, just now (6/24/26 at 8:17am).

For me - it is about who I basically am.... a singer, a sharer, a server, and more..... dare I say a believer? a person with some learning, a learner.... 

It would be something for me to really become a decent TEACHER!!! My last foray -- the talk about mourning/death rituals was really not well done. Maybe someday another chance...

I have done a wedding, a memorial/funeral, Shabbat services, High Holiday services...  and ???

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Tuesday, June 23, 2026

2026 Daily - 06/23/2026 - write??? PURPOSE???

 Well -- before writing ... let me get my bearings, so to speak, for TODAY. First -it is NOW almost 6AM - and I've been up for an hour or more... Time zones after traveling .... difficult on both ends - going and coming. NOW I get to sleep but awake early...  This will pass.

Upcoming biopsy has me anxious... Who will help me... be with me... This Thursday... I think I shall postpone biopsy for a couple of weeks. Stuff on Satursday night and dog-sitting and Sarah away and Ellen?? etc, etc... Just a little much....

As I sit here writing at this time ... I am cleaning up around the house in prep for Adrianna... I have let things explode a bit onto surfaces, etc... and I need to put things in their proper places. Did so in front of house... Next - bedroom. Then back into this office... after breakfast. Walking w/Ava and seeing Rachel... and then lunch and workout (upper body weights and more..)... - maybe car shopping before workout.

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Now it is near the end of the day.... Nice walk, saw Rachel, lunched on half of the chicken deal, worked out, read a bit... facebooked/reels, and now Brilliant Minds on Peacock...

==Some thoughts=== where am I? Who has helped me get here... without any support? Did I deserve support/appreciation/LOVE....

I did deserve love and appreciation and SUPPORT!!! and now I am wihout any immediate family.

I AM OBSESSING... I MUST STOP!!!!

I am just not sure who I am with or who is with me... AND then back at them... YET... 

Stop obsessing... Start something....!!!

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And... am I wasting time? Existing w/out purpose... THATS THE QUESTION... PURPOSE.... GOALS...WHAT DO I WANT? 

WHAT DO I WANT???!!!!

And -- where do I want to do it? With whom???!!!

etc.. etc..