Will I make some bold moves, changes, etc... And why or what am I waiting for? A REASON == wait til I hear from CBH and also wait til after year of mourning for my original nuclear family, i.e my sister who followed the death of my mother and father... thus leaving me ALONE.... To fully realize myself or myselves... I am not blaming anyone for anything... OR at least I am trying to not think of blamings... What I am thinking is... LEGACY... What have I done worth noting, remembering, honoring??? I can make such a list but that list would leave out something important and that would be ... honoring others! I have not been good at giving credit where due although I have not taken credit that was another's. It is just that I did inititate some things and got some things done and I did want appropriate credit for myself and often did not get that. Oh woe is me... I could say... OH poor me... BUT - the good was done and that was good!
SO lists... of accomplishment or stuff done worthy of note by me... AND MORE IMPORTANTLY - can I list people who I may have honored are who I should have honored or who I can honor? To be considered!!!
Today I am writing in the morning. I will do Meals on Wheels, have lunch w/David Foos, see Jim, check about mattress, go to Costco, and rehearse w/Davis Chorale. BUSY!!!! And do some cleaning/picking-up in preparation for Adrianna tomorrow.
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got on phone w/Anthem about behavorial health.... VERY LONG wait to talk to someone who then took questions and is now taking a long time to find and return with information/answer. SHHEEESHHH... - Lousy music!!!
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Carl Jung - aging:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4UJ3jzEKYSM
four pillars:
Individuation.... - new roles... !!! - psychological maturation!
Integrating the shadow -- face yourself with acceptance... regrets??? an invitation to become whole... hold back bad emotions... no judgemenet .. but understanding - psychological softening. no reactivity - instead calm presence...
Meaning after achievement - from doing to being... productivity not needed..
Reconciling with death... Understand death... it is not to be avoided... PREPARE... less fear... not denial...
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