AAaahhhh.... if only I had a family!!! Or at least a past family... I DO have my daughters and that is wonderful... Just wish I had what others had ... with memories and all. IF I were to place responsibilities .. how much on me... and how much on them... mother, father, sister? One way I think of things and which was supported by some therapists and friends and family... is that I did not respond well or react well after and while seeing them. Therefore -- to protect my fagile self ... I distanced myself ......ahhh... now to today/nextday....
