well, well, well

You can't always get what you want --- but if you try? sometime -- you get what you need....?!!!

Try for what? What do I want? What do I need? What do I get? What do I now get....

I CAN make a list... albeit a short list of what I don't get ... or can't do.. and so feel unfulfilled.

That is IT... Being Unfulfilled. What would fill me up?

Happiness is THE THING and I am responsible for my own happiness and so I try, these days more then ever, to keep on smiling and keep steady and calm and FINE.

Anger doesn't get me anywhere... that is a lesson well learned. Sadness doesn't get me anything either.

I truly find myself at a loss for how to get what I want... beyond that which I need. I am not fulfilled and yet I am good, ok, fine, essentially happy in comfort and ease of living.

I am WELL... And I am getting better as I am now, suddenly at age 70 somewhat disciplined in several ways. Most recently and noticeable -- I am being disciplined about my eating. I eat anything I want but within limits of daily calorie intake. Other nutrients are looked at such as salt and carbs and fiber but bottom line which tends to carry all those other details is CALORIES. I am losing weight and I am recording good sugars. Earlier I heard myself -- only give me a small piece of that cake. WOW! I amaze myself. It is making me more well, healthwise, and also well relative to sensing I have some control over myself.

I have been vocal about this new way and starting tomorrow I think I will be more quiet since it doesn't matter what I say publicly. It matters to me what I do in the privacy of my own self.

Well... I am well... and more well! YEA! And I wrote THIS and that makes three days in a row writing again.