2026 Daily - 08/31/2026 - Prep for the future -- scifi and such - Fairness or power

 I've been watching The Capture ... about video hacking, fakes... and the like. In the past I watched Person of Interest... Both depict a present....??? or near future ... when video/audio surveilance is ubiquitous. Scary and believable ... and POSSIBLE??? With enough cameras and computing power I think YES... And that is amazingly scary.

SO -- in the past I've read a lot of science fiction which when good is pretty realistic. Maybe not happening ... but possible... and probably in some ways - small? - happening. For instance - beam-me-up ... teleportation.. Possible .... Needs lots and lots of power...And then - Space Elevators... needs the kind of materials that are light and strong.... Possible.  Good sci-fi suggests the expansion... of realities that are current but inpractical... and then they someday do become real and practical...

AND SCARY... So - sci-fi once for me prepared me for a good new world... But a Brave New World... may be what we get. The two shows mentioned above suggest and show how technologies that are nearly/or really here can be manipulative, controlling, etc.. 

Today we are mostly concerned with AI and how smart if seems and how much it can do without risking human lives or how it can replace human drudgery ... and yet -- are those the real problems?

Secretive uses of AI... with surveilance and POWER behind it... machine or HUMAN... is wildly problematical. In Episode 2-5 - a character shows how his ALGORITHYM elects a candidate by molding perceptions and sending out messages to fragments of the populace and thus gains the majority edge needed to be elected. It is not even illegitimate... It is using information and creaing appropriate messages and it can all be rather open and known..../??  The issue would be is the data being used legally, etc being gathered for the use by the Systems?

BTW - Issac Asimov predicted the use of massive data in his Foundation Series.. calling the science: psychohistory. As wikipedia says in its article about the Foundation (novel series): "the mathematician Hari Seldon devises the theory of psychohistory, a new and effective mathematics of sociology. Using statistical laws of mass action, it can predict the future of large populations."

Legal issues? Moral issues? Ethics... - They all have, do, and will bow to POWER.. Therefore the question is - how can the people being controlled control power? Democracy is an answer and AI,etc may seem to mock that ... I suppose two parties could use AIetc and battle it out.It is when outside countries, forces (Russa, China, etc) interfere in the internal affairs of other countries that there is a BIG PROBLEM... Which can be/might be countered??!!!

Access to data - big amounts of data... about individuals and their habits and interests... their LIVES... is something TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT...  I have said - it doesn't matter what people know about me... I do not do bad, shameful, immoral things... BUT aggregate me with other like me and unlike me and then send out messages tailored to individuals and their invisible groups.... THEN I can see the problem.

I still think... if all parties had equal access then all parties could battle it out, so to speak, on equal footing ... as they have always... Politicians have always tailored speeches to their audiences. There was a time such tailoring was not known (communication technologies didn't broadcast them) and then they were known... Instant News... And now: the new world has to simply take into account the speed at which news moves. Truth... as opposed to deepfakes...must be available and known and then the electorate can weigh in. YES -- DEEPFAKES can fool . but the public may be able to come to understand and get at the real facts and truths. Heinlien had the Fair Witness professionals who: "only reports exactly what they see or hear. They do not extrapolate. For example, if asked what color a house is, a normal person says "white." A Fair Witness says, "It is white on the side facing me." (from Google AI answer).

A question I would pose for today's divided world... - What can bring us together to some consensus? Rotary has its four questions and they are a basis for consensus and united living. They are:

The Four Questions

Is it the TRUTH?
Is it FAIR to all concerned?
Will it build GOODWILL and BETTER FRIENDSHIPS?
Will it be BENEFICIAL to all concerned?

And so there are ways to pursue truth with the use of psychology and sociology and information. I hope!

2026 Daily - 08/30/2026

 Sunday evening.. I've been binging a tv show ... Capture... found it on peacock, watched 1st season on Amazon....and now will try the 2nd and 3rd seasons back on Peacock ... with their commercials.

Day was ok... Very nice of Neal to drop by this morning... 

Talked w/Sheera and Sarah. 

Eating ok... watching bowel movements.... Essentially ok... Will check in with docs tomorrow.

So - quiet day....Ate too much ... snacks... but will see what scale says tomorrow. 

2026 Daily - 08/29/2026 - yesterday was MEDICAL!!!

 well - its the day after prostate procedure... my complain is basically the catheter dance... but that is not too back, really.

Neal got me to hospital. Very nice!

Ellen picked me up. She brought food and comfort. That was wonderful!

Now today -- getting some texts and calls from folks looking in - expressing their care. NICE!

Went to services via zoom... two folks named me in mishebeirach.

Last night's sleep was ok... It is now about 3pm... I'm eating and stuff ok... Spending some time on facebook watching reels. Soon will probably lie down in bed and watch some tv. Last night watched the movie PRESSURE... on my access to peacock.. Very Good! Interesting and intense interpersonal dynamics. Well acted. The people, if portrayed authentically were amazing in their passions and their calmness.

maybe more later...................................

It is now about 8pm... I've been sitting a lot.. Had a bout with blood from tuche.. probably a hemmoroid... Didn't show up later. So - I'm not worrying... 

Quiet day.... laundry being dried now... emptied dishwasher - which is working better... good enough. 
Services today via WebCam.. good. Nice listening to stuff.

I am dancing w/catheter..... and learning ok steps.
House is a mess... but this is a time I can do some clearning and clearing out. 

I am typing this part in standing in kitchen which is, I think, the highest counter. 

Good night!

2026 Daily - 08/27/2026

 Back from Men's Grief group.... Carrying my burden(s) alone... not the best thing to do... Really too much for anyone... and men do it a lot..

We suffer alone... We don't share our suffering. 

ME -- I will actually assert I am not suffering... while in fact I am -- lonely, can't really connect with others... as much as I want to... THINK I want to... Really do want to connect...

VULNERABILITY ...  that is The Thing... The TICKET...  be soft... let things through... in both directions? I know about Vulnerability... I accept it ... intellectually. I have for years... since my undergraduate days!!! Where IS that book??? Maybe the thing is to go onto the Benet Brown facebook site and ask... hmmm...

I suffer... I fear... I really am strong and brave... but -- I am not known... or do not think I am known... I want to be known, seen, appreciated, LOVED...

2026 Daily - 08/26/2026 - Disciplined Do's

 Today... it is now ... amost 10PM.... so good thing I remembered to write... 

I need MoreBetterDiscipline!! MBD! No doubt about that.

To begin SOON -- I need to start my workouts at 6pm. That will take into account all days when things such as minyan or travel to services or walking w/Ava can follow. Only day it doesn't work well with is Friday and Rotary. MAYBE I will squeeze in a workout after Rotary and before getting together w/Steve.  Sunday may need to start a little later if club isn't open at 6...  BUT I am needing to reset my workout using the basic suggestion of doing it at the same time each day!

Other things will need to be SET.. timewise... Blogging for one. Writing for another. A walk, too! A meals, also. Add - calls and emails to friends/family - and reading as well as tv/movies at home. It is a lot of specific things... but I need to be disciplined... at long last in my life!!! -- Cleaning and gardening, too. I SUPPOSE all things do not need to be done EACH day...  But calendar'ed and scheduled would be a really good idea!!! So say many!! Open in middle of day for lunch.... social and meeting... same for dinner. \

ABOVE IS STUFF TO DO... BECAUSE I WANT AND NEED TO DO!!!

Today -- gutters got cleaned. I did a little workout (just elliptical). Went to a Shmary class (King in the Field) and as usual -- slow, plodding, repetitive, not getting to real meat, I think... though the stuff above about discpline did come out of that class. So - useful!

The other thing from the class.. I really need to know what I want to do, produce, build, accomplish... AND that is a Jewish Conservative Shul in Davis or Woodland. Essentially in Yolo County! Such a place would not require people to drive the Causeway or all the way to Walnut Creek or such. Davis is sort of in the middle.... ???!!!

And so... soon!!!!

2026 Daily - 08/25/2026

 good day... started off w/walk w/Ava.... then took Rachel to doc.. HOWEVER --- when I got home about 11am -- BIG flood in back... broken heads... on irrigation. Called Dave... and he came over ... and will fix... What a mess... but at least I got the water OFF...!!!

Had a weight workout ... pretty good. 

It is now about 5pm ... and I need a shower. NOW... later...

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2026 Daily - 08/24/2026 - just a day....

 well.... i remembered to write today.. 

ok day... nothing special -- saw Jim.. and will/may watch Attack of Titans....an anime based on a manga....

Did a little workout... began a pbs series... Magpie Murder... kind ok...

it is coming up on 9pm.... and when I will probably be in bed... heading for sleep. Might walk tomorrow w/Ava -- though I haven't heard from her...  so probably not... 

unpacked a little more of stuff from Florida... AND cleaned up... a bit... the guest room in anticipation that Sarah will stay over... THOUGH ... I need to get that plan on straight... br

I am waiting to hear from Dall'rea about AFIB... issue....

Ate ok today... still more probably then I needed to.. No alchohol. Some peanut butter. Brocolli salad - simple, tomaotes, BREAD with olive oil... opened some from Spain. Still have a can from Portugal not yet opened. Tuna fish in mayo. Not too bad.... could have had less/no bread... but I DO like my carbs! 

I am getting a bit more morning light... and doing a little stretching... Made bed...\

Sat out in back... w/water and binoculars... watched hummingbirds and some hawks... COOL.

2026 Daily - 08/23/2026

 Missed writing on Shabbat ... or evening after end of Shabbat... typical...

Just went to R. Brownstein's class.... OY -- so many extas.... from the point... BUT patience and exceptance is all that can be done... Oh... he and I didn't get together... more patience and exceptance. OY..

Interesting to hear how thoughts don't come first for some... REACTION does... I think I was thinking that recently... when I was going to ask a friend - SO - what can we agree on? I wonder since sometimes it seems whatever I say is reacted to with opposite argumentation.. Just for the heck of it????

I did a little gardening... and cleaning around the house.. MORE needed... inside and out. Brought in some green figs ... not a lot on the tree but what I brought in -- GOOD!!!

Got the shipment of large (12oz) cans of tuna fish... made some with only mayo and will have that tomorrow, Monday.... 

Worked out -- elliptical and situps.. Showered.... feeling pretty good.

Reloaded hummingbird feeders... THEY are happy! I think...

and so it goes........

2026 Daily - 08/21/2026 - trips and health spas, too

It is now very early - a bit past 5am... I have been up for a while and sent a note to doc about medication issues for next week's HIFU ... and then got into looking at info for travel and for health/weight loss spas. Got some good leads...

SEE:https://www.schwab.com/learn/story/financial-considerations-moving-abroad?cid=34835772-6069808-253136656-435613444&dclid=CPb79IDsr5YDFXqtOgUdDDgvuQ&gad_source=7&gad_campaignid=23347979222

AND:

https://thegoodlifeabroad.com/?gad_source=1

https://thegoodlifeabroad.com/solo-traveler-sessions

AND see PDF in Travel on desktop

AND GOOGLE SEARCH:  living abroad programs

An idea: the Solo thing to Vienna - 11/15-11/29

followed by a few days in Berlin and then an airbnb in Paris or ?????

THEN the Oslo to Oslo Hurigruten trip...

AND FOR SPAS:

GOOGLE: health spas for weight loss

AND SPECFICALLY - they have gotten a request from me for info: 

AND SO IT GOES....

Soon - Rotary and then Steve ... and then a nap and/or workout....

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now after Rotary .. .and some more thoughts about brisken and gabbai issue I have sent an email with my concerns about misrepresentation and representation and I have said I hoped he would make things right ... one way or the other. My expectations are not high. 

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and - drop it drop it drop it.... cbh shit

2026 Daily - 08/20/2026 - about reform rabbis

I purposely did not capitalize the "r" in the title. I think I have met perhaps 7 rabbis of the reform movement and only one... a temporary appointee back in the 1990's, was ok. Others include: one who silenced me when I read a passage from the book: "Life is with people"; one who seemed to not be teaching one of my daughters well; one who asserted that since the word "promise" wasn't used then doing something "asserted" was not required; one who could not take a compliment; one+one who didn't ask questions or follow a reasonable process; and one who doesn't listen/hear or seem to know things such as the difference between honors and service.... So - Ignorance, duplicity, power, compassion, etc... quite lacking.

Who knows what the 1990's temp Rabbi might have eventually said/done .. but he like me have both been essentially forgotten. Few remember his year here and my presidency is not remembered, either.

I may call the current guy on his not listening since he may have misrepresented me and that would cause me harm. Slander? Of course -- would he care? He is only a temporary fill-in... and maybe that is what he does because he recognizes personal limitations...??

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And today I had my knee examined and physical therapy is to be done. Nothing operatable...  Pain management.... exercise to strengthen muscles in area. I was examined by a young doctor for whom I may have been gabbia... Nice doctor. Nice family. Interesting times/ages!

2026 Daily - 08/19/2026

 yesterday's was just published.... on the 19th... though it was written on the 18th...

TODAY - now -- it is 10:16pm - bedtime. Got an appointment tomorrow for my knee... Seems like August is medical month. Could have had heart ablasion this month, too... if not for prostate ablasion and on/off Eliquis... 

Did the Chabad class this evening... a lecture with lots of diversions from actual topic - the King in the Field parable. I guess we'll get to it someday. I would like to talk with R.. about whether or not teachers learn from their students? What does that mean to him?\

In any case --- good night now...!!!!!

2026 Daily - 08/18/2026 - history repeats??

 Does history repeat itself... YES... Do we LEARN from history -- YES... however - while we might want to learn what not to do that was done in the past.... I fear what we do is look at the past and see things we then repeat now ... to get them right, finally... OR to just do them since they were things we supported, liked, served us... 

SO - the military studies past battles... so to repeat them today as they worked back then...

SO - with new technologies... such as drones... the past doesn't provide us with a blueprint.. HOWEVER -- these days of using "new technologies" and strategies... with drones and other things reminds me of the TESTING of new ways of war during the Spanish Civil War in the 1930's.. In the 1930's the use of airpower was introduced... and while it may be similar to long distance artillary .. it was different and more effective. TODAY - how are drones like other things from the past? IF we can determine that similarity then we might come up with best practices for responding ... OR maybe it is just a matter of using them as they are being used. NOTE: drones were first...?? apparently used by the US Military to hit small distant targets. Those drones were guided by personnel via cameras... and now the drones are more autonomous. 

THE WORRY - will weapons overcome their handlers?

Back to REPEATING History -- we didn't learn enough from the Vietnam War nor the Russian trial in Afghanistan... AND NOW -- what can be done about Iran? Will there be boots put on the ground? It is ALWAYS THE INFANTRY that carries the basic load... they say. Will we allow Trump to put American troops on the ground in Iran????? Doubtful... but he is not controlled or controllable....OY!!!!

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2026 Daily - 08/17/2026 - Loyalty.... and other "L's"....

 If not Love -- then continued Loyalty..

Both "L" words... interestingly... And one can be smothering, I suppose. 

Then if not love or loyalty - Loss...

Ahhh... Three L's.

Loser, Leader, ?????

Lessons, learning, ????

Leave.... Left...  (right, wrong...???)

AND

Stability, INERTIA, ????

Is it FEAR? Is it something else... Isn't everything linked to fear... or FEARS???!!! So - about what am I afraid? Loneliness... ???? That seems unrealistic, really. I have friends... I can call upon people for help. I help!!! - SO ?? I am connected .. I have some kind of community and new Shul in town. To be considered and planned, etc...

2026 Daily - 08/16/2026 - me me me

 It is me.....

I don't feel like those in movies, etc... and adverts such as for St. Jude's .... etc etc..

I used to talk about love... and love is wonderful.... and real, etc... etc... 

It is ALL ETC... 

SO - now... I find myself not thinking even about love ... at least not with any person... BECAUSE -- if didn't work out most recently so I am uncertain... and afraid... ALSO - because my ability to be physically intimate is severely impaired..... AND because my current activities are disturbingly reduced because I am not permitted to do what I can, might, WANT to do... 

SO - what shall I do?? Look some more for someone else? Look into MYSELF? - What is it about me and what I do and how I feel and why I think or not think as I do...  I am free. I am content. I am sometimes bored. I am physically weak. I am not happy... BUT am I UnHappy? 

About happiness... now, where... will I stumble onto happiness??? 

AND is happiness the essential goal??

What else might be the "goal"? WHAT MISSION MIGHT I PURSUE?  Is it a new congregation in Davis? Is it travel? Is it living somewhere else? Is it moving away? 

MOVING -- if I could get myself to pack, trim down, etc... I could move lots of new places.... I could move to Walnut Creek... I could move to ???? Maybe I should consider some kind of temporary move? A year somewhere else... while renting my house.... Renting is as Furnished???? A foreign house EXCHANGE!!!! That foreign place would be ????????

SO - who to talk to about such stuff?? A therapist? A friend... My kids?? WHO!!!!!????? It would be great to get this right!!!!

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Today was a pretty nice day ... with Ellen... however I was not able to walk/hike ... up the hills near Muir Beach... Very frustrating!!!!

Yesterday -- Ellen joined me at Sarah's where Carlos and Sarah made us a nice lunch... Ellen brought some nice desserts... We had some nice conversations... Pretty nice!!

NOTE: in conversation I asserted the point of view that we Jews have yearned for returning to Israel for 2000 plus years. Israel is one of the basic centers of Jews... in our rituals, our hearts, our souls... Our communities have always thought about and prayed about Israel and Jerusalem ... and SO - Israel along with G-d, Torah and Talmud, Mitzvahs, Ethics - more?? ... have all made it possible for Jews and Judaism to survive. Those are all the parts that help with our resiliance and survival as Jews...

A question could be - do Jews need to survive? Are Jews needed? WHY?? Those are questions... and they need answers to support continused resiliance, resistance, survival!!!!

WHY is difficult... WHY's are necessary... or not???

2026 Daily - 08/13/2026 - kidney stone, shooting stars....

 Yesterday morning ... Kidney stone event --- resolved, I think/hope mostly by good care at Sutter. Makes me reealize -- we are lucky in Davis to have that hospital!!!

Neal came in and was going to give up plans to help .... VERY NICE of him. I was able to let him go on with his plans since Ellen came and helped me with transportation and all and that, too, was VERY NICE!!!

Ellen and I spent afternoon together --- lunch and played quiddler...

In late  evening -- actually early Thursday morning - at about 1am... Went into backyard and saw several meteors as part of Persieds Meteor Shower.... good evening for it - new Moon... but there were clouds AND YET I saw some magnificent meteors... ! Best ever for me. WOW.

2026 Daily - 08/11/2026 - 2nd say, almost

 As I write this... it is 7:40pm - sort of near the end of the day... The SECOND day of me really trying to eat better and LESS....I have not yet started the Jardiance - as I would like info/a word more with a pharmacist specialist to see if ALL meds I am taking will work ok together. There IS an issue about the glipizide... SO -- I hope to talk soon.

Today was a good day ... worked out early in morning... got a bid for gutter/roof cleaning, saw Jim, and then home... and watching LONG movie: Project Hail Mary.... maybe too long? slow? "realistic"? Got a call from Pam, and ablasion appt setup with nurse who called...

Profound thought/thinking for the day?

Relationships .... and CHANGE.. and wonder and acceptance and appreciation... etc.. We All GROW!!! And that is GOOD!!! 

But ME? Do I grow? Have I grown? What do I know... think? want....???!!!! It is so often THE question: WHAT DO I WANT?

maybe .... just maybe... I want to live in distant unusual new, newish - places... not here in Davis... But travel to places and STAY a while.  I still have living life in me... I hope, I think... I HOPE!!!!

I must LEAD ME... Lead myself... I think I have often followed... In recent years I have made MY choices... and followed them... I have LEAD MYSELF... As Fromm said, essentially, - Being FREE is difficult... and so giving up one's freedom to someone else --- that is kind of easy.... SADLY!

NOW if/when I am in Davis --- what would I lead myself to... ??? HHmmm..... - that is so often the/a new Jewish center here in Davis... A middle ground.... We have Reform. We have Orthodox. There is Hillel - which is a mix... SO - A Conservative shul might be THE THING... 

IF we/I did this... I think the "conservative" rules would include some I and others might chafe at... Specifically - children and their Jewish parent or parents... IT is when there is only one Jewish parent that a question arises....And while there are answers... some of available, some are difficult, and a new one could be easy... and right and good... I.e. -- patrilineal descent should be on an equal par with matrilineal descent... The two other ways ... early immersion in an mikvah or conversion... are problematical... and UNNECESSARY ..  and un supportable (in law)... SO - chafe we will ... or something!!!! NOTE: There are or may be some here in Davis who would like a Conservative presence and the maintenance of Matrilinieal descent... and if so -- what to do?? How to determine??

DIFFICULT.....!!!!!

Leadership as I observe in some others... Be authentic and personal while also being curious and perhaps somewhat vague, too... on certain issues... OR at least take sole personal issue with something ... while organization has it another way....Either Big/Distant Organization or Local/Little Organization.

And for now ... that is all -- OY OY OY OY

2026 Daily - 08/9/2026 - trickster... and hopefully???

 The idea is HE is a trickster... a maker of chaos... and while WE wait til the end of his 2nd term -- actually what would be better is REPUDIATION... and by/with Republicans... or else Republicans are forever culpable for the future...!!!

IMHO !!!!!

Note the editorial from the NY Times:  ‘The Odyssey’ Gives Us the Hero We Deserve - guest essay by: By B.D. McClay, a critic and essayist.

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2026 Daily - 08/6/2026 - where to stayCAY, wanderlust, no roots....

 So -- If I were to travel to someplace.... familiar ... and stay a while... Where??/ For how long? When?

Paris, Florence, Tel Aviv, NYC, San Francisco, LA, somewhere in Canada??? London, Edinbourogh, Dublin, Belfast???, Copenhagen, Stockholm, Budhapest, OY OY OY.....!!!!! Sydney, somewhere in New Zealand?, somewhere in Hawaii? somewhere in Mexico, San Diego?

And what is Marie's point of her long road trips??? From/to all the way East in Canada... and now all the way West and North in Canada... INTERESTING....

ME - Museums, theater, food...  St. Louis, too? And music.... and sports?

Do I want to see greenery? Oceans? Mountains? If so -- national parks, state parks... The Rain Forest of the Pacific Northwest....

There are times when I want to/am able to ... travel -- but I don't know where???? Or how...??? Train, car (new one), plane.... boat?? Combination - rent a car along the way.... And - ALONE? Or with ????

What about an AROUND THE WORLD CRUISE? Or a plan to go around the world... in whatever ways turn up... appear... - planes, buses, cars, boats... trains... etc. etc...

Mild climate time? WHEN????

2026 Daily - 08/5/2026 - TRUST and New Futures???!!

 After seeing Hadestown.. I must wonder about trust... and love... and passion... and of course Freedom and self-enslavement to necessities (comforts)...  Quite a story. A great one. And Hades is a controlling King who doesn't trust others ... and asserts his power and makes WALLS... etc... So  - how does that all apply to me? At this elder stage of my life...

Interesting conversation and sharing w/David at lunch... Physical stuff happens... and "passionate acts" can't be done... Are not done.. Kidneys... Hormones... ME and my prostate... OY!....

Can the future be different from the past? Seems too often what we learn from the past is how to hate... YES we see that peace and love is good ... but then we wonder if such ideals can ever be real!!!!

What is reality? Who defines reality? These days ... the leader of the USA is asserting realities which are not real or true or evidence-based or good.... It is a terrible time for truth and trust and goodness and peace and sharing... Ah... SHARING.... vs Greed.... That is the issue.... There is so little real and effective and possible SHARING... Instead there is hoarding and greed and I  am guilty of that, too.... At least the hoarding. 

Among the many things I do... will do... is Spread The Wealth! I've been doing that with my kids... and with some other organizations. I need to do MORE!!!! I CAN DO MORE..... How much more can I do? For whom? For what? I need to give to some entities I can determine are truly trustworthy and who are doing real good. AAAHHHHH......

2026 Daily - 08/2/2026 - early.... and starting...

 It is early (about 6:15am)... and I've written an email to the Valkyries and had my first cup of coffee and empteid the dishwasher .. and now will go have some breakfast... AND then --- gather some stuff for Goodwill.

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2026 Daily - 08/2/2026 - memories..

Party, at O'connors? - surprise --- 30th...

Party - 70th - at home/at Stonegate Club

Many trips... 

Some family memories... nuclear... old

Family memories -- daughters, Susan, and others... 

What were those memories? What has been recorded - in pictures? TIME TO REVIEW.. and organize!!!!! And REMEMBER!!!!

That is THE TASK to do ... this birthday year starting August 3rd -- day after 77th.... on Aug. 2nd. SO much from soo many years... and so many people, events, places... 

2026 Daily - 08/1/2026 - what to do!!!!1

What do I want to do... NOW? What  what  what ???

What is holding me back? What am I afraid of.... Isn't it fear that blocks me?

What do I need to move... move  move  move... 

A new car... some new clothes... some destinations...  people? to see? .... people to meet????

Maybe I don't need a car... just some plane or train tickes and a good enough bag.... 

GO GO GO GO .....

OR

STAY AT HOME - IN TOWN... AND FIGURE MYSELF OUT.....!!!!

Most clearly...

I need something...  a change... a focus... a project??    ----   CBH --- --- >>>>>>  CREATE/DEVELOP.... something... A new/additional Jewish center/alternative... because???   AND/OR -- Who needs to invite or join... which side needs to go first... OR is that hardly the question. Maybe -- I just think Davis is able to support another Jewish center. A Jewish Community Center... to add to: CBH, Hillel, Chabad1, Chabad2, any other???

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who can help me???? I need help!!!!

2026 Daily - 07/29/2026

 up early again ... this time 7am - after dog barking!!!!

Got medications in order. I have a year's worth at home.... I might stop ording metformin once... maybe others. We'll see. 

Hazardous waste being gathered. Old meds, batteries, and there is paint and other chemical things in garage. Going to be picked up NEXT week.

Going to doctor's soon - cpap renewal, knee, kidney stone.. and paid bill.

After appt -- workout, shower, head to Ellen's.

AND did I say -- I expect Florida stuff soon - maybe Saturday.

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