well... it is 9AM now so I'm getting a early start on this blog... My Daily...
BLOG = web based Log --- for me, for this -- essentially a diary.
What has been happening and what is planned... AND maybe - how I feel... Certainly how/what I am thinking about...
This morning I awoke with Sarah's dog Foxie sleeping on the floor in my bedroom. I would like Foxie to be more of a hugger... but she is how she is and she is a bit better at allowing herself to be petted. I guess she could be described as stand-offish... reticent... somewhat fearful (she was a rescue and may have had some abuse or neglect early on). She is basically calm and quiet and she lays around a lot and well - BUT she has high energy when she can show it. She is mostly a working dog -- an Australian Cattle Herding Dog.... And she could do that! Anyway - we took a walk after her 8am breakfast. I do not know when/where she does her "business" ...All's well...
After my breakfast I may take her to run at Stonegate and then bring her home and then I will go back and workout ... upper body, too!! My left arm needs some help, strengthening... And I need to start off light. I will try watching the 5th season of Prime Suspect... though I have to be online for that... weird... All other seasons are downloadable!
Today I will try to clean in house for a full hour -- maybe two half-hours... to make up for some previous missed days. Weight is heading down a bit. That is good. Knees - a bit sore.
What do I want to do about Dana!!! Logistics... is an issue. Equality is important to her as it is to me. As for my COMFORT... Aren't I rather comfortable now... alone? Yes -- I would like to do things with someone .. .travel, dinner, etc. etc.. There is TOUCH!!! Talk is all good ... AHHHhhhh... what to do? I am, I think/guess, afraid of getting hurt. I can wonder about hurting the other person -- but I can and have gotten hurt and while it has not been horrible, terrible,... etc... I regret not having maintained certain relationships ... for certain reasons .. and I blame myself - for not acting right, for not making good judgements, good choices... etc etc..Yes - UNCERTAINTY is basically fundamental in life... SO - I can and do and have to live with that!
SO - what about the Pence Gala thing? I could ask Dana. Who else, besides Lori who is busyish that day, might I ask? OY!!!!
==pause - maybe more later===========
AND now it is about 11pm .. end of day...
Watched a bunch of tv - though did take Foxie on a couple of walks. And I know Foxie has found someplace in back for "business".
And BIGGY -- I would say -- I texted an invite to Dana inviting her to my house/Pence things ... We shall see. IF I don't hear back soon... I will call.... Of course...
SO - TV SHOW learning/teaching: Prime Suspect.
I've already noted the idea that when we work to learn something and study and think ... we conclude TODAY ... but more info may lead to a more accurate conclusion.
Today's season .. FIVE ... we all live in an imperfect world where we get imperfection. To wit -- police using criminals to contain crime activities... In other words - police fascilitating crimes for favorites. Not for money necessarily but for peace in certain parts of the community!
And on the personal level ... what was special about Prime Suspect was Jane who was a hard drinker and a sexual/sensual assertive person.
Good night!
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