loyualty, perserverance, persistance....
inertia, dislike or fear or change.....
WHAT keeps me going...; and going ... and going... on some path... with some group... with a particular person...
AND how OFF am I as to this self-perception?
OR is what is most OFF is the reason? Is it fear? FEAR seems to be most motivating - generally. But in me?
My Self-Perception has been - I am caring, supporting, somewhat interested (in others but not necessarily about the other to those others, i.e their friends, acquaintences, etc), warm and approachable, LOVING (this is very compromized, I think), sensitive...
AHH --- SENSITIVE... I do not like not being cared for... as shown by many people who just don't think about me (but that is normal, it is said).... And --- being SENSITIVE was beaten out of me... and that effects love and soo much. SO I think I am something that by training I am not... DON"T Love... Love doesn't last... etc etc
Quite the connundrom! I believe in something and can't easily do it.
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