Am I now on an every two day schedule for this blog... NO.... I hope to get back into dailies.. As well as begin playing piano once a day for at least 30 minutes...
Today - wrote emails about getting piano tuned and about getting computers copied and cleared of data. I await hearing back from folks.
AND other cleaning/clearing in my house?!!!
SO much to do!!
DO - compare Vietman tours... and make air reservations is/as necessary. And continue to plan for Florida trip.
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Just finished a session with anticipitory grief folksss.. Relative to my sister and backed up by the loss of my father and mother...
What am I least proud of in my life??? - it is How I handled relating to my parents and my sister. I feel guilty about not making things right, good, etc... I regret not working a miracle relative to having a good family relationship with them. I could have bent or broke myself to their will and needs. I think they would have appreciated that!!!! Instead I moved 3000 miles away from them and I did not make great efforts to communicate or visit. I did not do what I was supposed to do... as per their world view. And today I have regrets and feel some guilt and to a significant extent I am alone. I do not feel cared for by some people I might think might care for or about me. I AM fortunate to have my daughters and some relatives and some friends... So I am blessed ... while also feeling abandoned and even cursed.
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