Relationships and the qualities of the people... and something about me... BIG NOTE: I need to know how I feel AND how the other person feels AND I need TRUST... to be trusted and to trust the other. AND what do each of us bring to the other? Complimentary, additive, new?
Susan1 - intelligent, independent, career oriented... successful - And pretty. FROM: children, career, good start in life...NOTE: reactive proposal... good idea, really... impulsive.
Mary - pretty, intelligent, available in house I was lmore living/room-renting... And she left town for work... and I was not fully into her.. at the time. She was a good egg! FROM: ????
Susan2 - met at rabbi search, nice, intelligent, successful, an ok mom... pretty. FROM: some good eating habits. NOTE: some real fun and passion and youthfulness
Karen - met at congregation, nice and feisty, intelligent, struggling with psyche, good mom - trying to make up for earlier stuff. FROM: management of anger. NOTE: pulled in... not really ready.
Diane - pretty, blond, tall, entrepreneurial... independent. not too successful... dream chaser without good plan and/or support. FROM: style? Interest in being appreciated. Stock advice (not really good, though, but ok). NOTE: I wanted to get back in a relationship ... somehow did with her ... and it WAS very good... Probably should have stayed w/her even as she moved away.
Deanne - pretty, religious, mostly good values, hard worker, intelligent, VERY independent... too much really... Didn't need anyone .. or not me. FROM: some cooking, gardening, and charitable lessons. NOTE: I wanted to love someone... BUT did not wait to find out if I WAS LOVED! Impestuous?!
now - Ellen - intelligent, pretty, religious/knowledgeable/observant... Judgemental!!!! and not my judgements in some cases... close but harsher than me. She is sort of, essentially, personally right . I don't fully match her sentiments. FROM: ?? NOTE: I seem wanted. I wonder about "chemistry". It could essentially be ME and my lack of sensitivity...
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